Big Girls Dont Cry

Da Da Da Da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center of clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center of clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

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Dont we all feel like this sometimes? I know I have. We feel like we are going through something all on our own when the truth is that we are not. I attended church this past sunday for the first time in a few weeks and for the first time in a long time something that was said has stuck with me. That is that sometimes we let pride get in the way when we need to just ignore it all and ask for help. That is the biggest problem I have honestly. To tell someone I need to be in their prayers.. it brings up all the pain I have been trying to hide from people. All these months I have been hiding under the new and worse me and some people dont even know what the new me is like because I'll hide that from them as well. So I think its time that I come out and show people the real me... but i dont really know who that is anymore...

public service announcement

Sooo i decided to make a clear cut post about something my sister is asked every week im not at church... I just didnt drag my butt out of bed. End of story. In no way is she responsible for my absence. I am 17 years of age, it is completely and totally my responsibility to get myself up when i want or need to be somewhere. You may ask why my mother still drags me out of bed for school, the answe to that is i just plainly wouldnt go half the time if i had my way. But yes, that is my post for the day. So the next time you want to ask my sister where i am, you most likely already know the answer to your own question... IN BED! :)

eXalt 2006 video

GIRLS!

This is one of those times im ashamed to call myself a female. Some girls just put shame to the title "girlfriend". They're the most selfish people ever!!!!! My gosh if i could throw them all in a sack and throw them off a cliff i would most definately be tempted to!! Most recently a friend of mine was fighting with his girlfriend because of the simple fact he has a life! He works, he plays hockey, and sleeps basically to my knowledge.. maybe hangs out with some pals once in awhile and most definately spends time with the girlfriend when he can... and shes upset because the simple fact theres ups and downs because hes out of school and she isnt... WAKE UP CINDERELLA! LIFE ISNT ALL PONIES AND RAINBOWS! Hate to break it to you but he needs more then just you for companionship! Why cant all girls get that their boyfriend deserve to have a social life other then them? frick... that is my rant for tonight. thank you for reading... feel free to leave thoughts... cause i will comment back :)

Marks are in!!!

sooooooo report cards arent out til friday but we all know you bug the frigg outta some teachers and they'll give them out soooooo i'm sitting at:

Biology 112 - 80
Family living - 88
Chemistry 122 - 84
Trignometrey & 3space - 68
Biology 120 - 88

pretty good huh? yah i thought so too... trig is low but thats gonna change now that we're out of stupid identities. Plus a A minus on my biology 12 term paper is going to look pretty good :) anyways! thats all for now! ta ta!

being sick..sucks

well this is a short post to say i have been sick so nothing overly exciting has happened in my life as of late. farewell for now..

Kick Butt weekend turns into So-so week.

So here it is, the tuesday after eXalt and I couldnt be more lost and confused if i tried. The weekend was awesome and it felt great to be away and far from the stress and worries of everyday life... for a couple of days. But here I am back in the normal world with my 2nd major test of the week coming up tomorrow, a 1000 word paper to write this weekend and a poster to go with it. Most of all, I'm lost and confused about a friend of mine. We talked about the future we wanted together over the summer but since school has gone back in, he has been driven on school work and schlorships and hasnt been focusing on me. Call me selfish but a girl loves some attention. Yah we have random nights where we ramble on about nothing but during the week I couldnt catch his attention if i was dancing infront of him stark naked... well maybe that extreme would catch some attention but not the attention i want. I want reassurance, i want his thoughts on which school sounds good for me, I want to know if he still wants to be with me after graduation. Now we arent together at the moment because hes living in a different province now but i think if its meant to be then he'll come around.. if not, I guess im just holding out for nothing, which really sucks.. although its not like i have a ton of guys chasing after me and begging me to give them a chance. Crappy eh? ahaha

So I found out Sunday when I got home from eXalt that I WILL be altering my sister's prom dress for my own prom :) That is completely good news because it saves cash and I've been thinking of prom look ideas with that dress anyway. Cinderella and Prince Charming look here i come :o Yupp, I'm decking out in princess for prom. I act like one all the time anyway so why not finally look like one lol Oh yah, dates for prom/grad are in! Along with times, if you want them, tell moi and i'll hook yah up! Other then all that fun stuff... that is all for now.

Keep the Faith!

Faith

Hello my fellow blog readers, if there is any... anywhos! Faith. You can faith in many things. You can have faith in family, friends, a snowstorm to cancel school, or even faith in a computer to get your homework done. But have you ever considered putting your faith in god. 2 years, 2 months and 9 days ago I was baptised into Christ. Vowing to change my life for the better.. give up the old ways and start anew. Did that happen? No way in blue cheese. I got baptised thinking that changing was going to be a piece of cake. Well the piece of cake is about as hard as a rock. Not only have I not changed, I've become worse .. in ways i wish not to share. But I have continued going to youth group, I'll show up to church - once in awhile... but I have learnt more about what it does mean putting your faith completely in God. If something is bothering you, you pray to him and ask him to give you the strength to get through it.. and then you trust him to do it. It DOESNT mean turn around and start worrying about it all over again, or find another solution to the problem. I've also learnt it's really stupid to go and do something stupid and wrong and sinful and think "oh, god is forgiving, i'll ask for forgiveness then it wont matter" ... it does matter. Because Guilt is something you cant escape. Something the devil loves to put in you. Those little voices in your head.. telling you that something is wrong... it's called a conscience, I call it a gift from God. I may go against it... but its there telling me im being stupid. Now you may be sitting there thinking "this kid needs help". Well guess what.. I know I do. I need the help from god to out aside my old life, my old ways, and bad habits and start anew. I know he's willing to give it... now all i need to do is be willing to recieve it...

best friends means forever

Well a lot of people say that saying or have at least heard of it. In my 17 years of experience, i have had many "best friends" and a few i have fallen away from. in the past 9-10 months i have acquired a friend that i can truly call the best. He's there for me for better or worse, day and night, through sickness and in health... is it just me or is this starting to sound like a wedding vow :S ahaha anyways. We do however have a vow to each other and i plan to stick to it until the day i leave this earth.

I vow to Mark Waldo Somerville to be his bestfriend, shoulder to cry on and person to lean on forever and always until the day i die.

BFFAA Marky Bear<3

In other news, almost all ready for School! 1 week peeps!! Never been so pumped to get this thing going already!! Had a birthday, went shopping.. woot woot. Thats all for now.. Stay tuned! peace! Katie Out!

And Kate has been...where?

well i decided to update you all on where i have been lately. Filling you in on why i have not posted since ... July 20th. There is a very good explanation. It's called crazy busy keeping a normal social life! But yah...

August is now here, unfortunately. By far the most busy month of my summer. Here is a list of events:

Bucket club with the youth group Aug 2nd (no photo cause dan made a stinkin video) We have the first weekend in august, Family Reunion with Erin (no photo yet) I get back Monday evening, and wednesday night we had girls night (no photo) and then i spent the night at Lyse's .. those photos are on my site. but now we have tent over tonight, followed by a few days at home and then off with Lyse again! With erin's party at some point, birthday the next week. then possibly nackawic days. and hopefully some more time spent in fredericton in there.

so if im not posting regulary.. dont bite my head off. I'm out having a life. for once lol

If only...

So after watching the Disney films "Ice Princess" and "Go Figure" I find myself wishing I too could go flying through the air at high speed and be half as good as these trained professionals. I dont know if it's because I havent been skating in awhile or what but I just wanna put on my old pair of skates and just start trying to be able to try to defy gravity. Ahhh the dreams of a 16 yr old lunatic. lol

In other news, this lunatic has been out driving lately. Mann do I fly. YESS! I say beware to all pedestrains.. because I do not share my road.. and if you refuse to over.. I will blow my horn at you.. or come very close to hitting you with my mirror!

That is all for a Katelyn Post today.. thank you and goodnight.

Alright...New Update

Ok, so i got cut off by a thunderstorm last night! So I'll finish why I havent been posting. I'm in the process of revamping my site. So I dont know when my next post will be. This is my post proclaiming my leave of absence until I feel I have my site redone good... and I have something else to post about lol Later days everyone!!

Update

Well this is just going to be a quick post to say that i posted lol I'm in the process of ... uhh i'll add later

Miss Keswick Valley Pageant 2006

Contestants(Left to right):

Chelsey Palmer, Chelsey Gilbert, Carly Crouse, Jessica Crouse, Lisa Hill, Tiffany Crouse, Kelsey Brewer, Becky Pugh, Erin Douthwright, Ashlee Albright, and Kate Gilbert -uh huh thats me-

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Come one, come all. To here of my adventure through this much awaited, annual event. Starting practices in early May, the 11 contestants started out by filling out the papers that our 3 judges would be looking over, when deciding who would be getting what.. but i wont explain what you would already know if you sat through one of these things, so on with the post! My experience was definately a lot better then last years in some ways, although im still angry we didnt get to go out afterwards... grrr lol I'll continue by adding more photos and making this a very spiffy post.

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Moi and Escort Marky Somerville :)

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Me being bored afterwards; at the dance.

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Upon further investigation... all my other pictures badly stink. So thats all the photos you're getting! HAHA! Anywhos, hope those who were there enjoyed.. and if you werent there.. WHY NOT! anywhos, have a awesome time inbetween my posts! See yas!

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Oh... and I have a present for Alex; his hand is going to be famous :P

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Catch Up

A phrase we usually hear pertaining to school, work, gossip, etc. But I am using this title to describe the purpose of this post.. to let my non exsisting readers catch up on the life of me. Dont all comment at once! haha So we'll go back to... hmm .. i dont even know where to begin. March I got dumped by the "amazing" boyfriend mentioned in Febuarys post. It was awesome while it lasted though. Went out with my pal John for about a week, he was a complete sweetheart. Still is, it was a few days later and he was helping me with other guy problems.. that sounds bad yess.. but its true. Im in the process of getting over one of my most wonderful, amazing friends. He knows who he is :P and yess, it is in process.

In other news, i was in the Miss KV pageant for the second year in a row. Still came out with no title, but it was an amazing year anyway. I'll post more about it with photos some other time though. After the pageant it was a week at home sleeping in and staying up late, then Canada Day Weekend i was off to Moncton with my friend Erin to accompany her and her parents at the 30th year anniversary for the Maritime Van Council. I had a blast and I cant wait until the long weekend in August for the fam reunion with her in Woodstock!! :D

Well that seems to be all the news, except that there is this amazing guy I have fallen in like with. The only down thing about him, is that he lives in moncton :( But he's so sweet and caring i dont even really care.. except that I theres so many times we wish soo bad we lived closer together :( But i think, hopefully, everything will work out :)

Soo this is my blog for this week, hopefully with summer here.. I can start updating this thing more :) Later peaceful days people!

Sick of it!!

Yes thats right. I'm finally writing another post.. About what? My sister. Why? Because I'm sick and tired of her getting her own way! GRRRRRR! and yah i could say a lot more but i wont right now... thanks for reading... good bye.

My oh my...

So it's been a looong while = a lot of new things in my life =) I've now got my new wonderfully amazing boyfriend, New computer!! WOOT! means i have the old but still awesome one in my room now !! :D say hello to no sleep! HAHAHA! lol So it's been 4 months since Mel took her life... still miss her with all my heart. Havent seen the doggies since October *thumbs down* ... blaaahhh well Im off to work on my site.. later days =)